At The Anzelmo Wellness Center we use plant medicines to help clean your system of opiates, but also to help you to see yourself: your habits, your pains, wounds, traumas, and the roots and cause of your addictions or depression, in such a powerful and clear way. Ibogaine can show you why you have your anger, stubbornness, loneliness, separation, sadness, reactions, and emotional triggers. It can help you release the shame, guilt, and self-judgement. And can help you forgive yourself, for all the suffering you caused others, yourself, and the wrongs that have been done to you.
A recent patient, Mason, shares his experience with Ibogaine, 5MEO DMT, and Ayahuasca:
“I’ve been in four treatment centers. This is my fifth. I’ve also been in jail, so I’ve gotten clean there. This place is so different. All rehabs are NA, AA, 12 steps. They don’t offer yoga, or any type of spiritual care. All that stuff was foreign to me when I got here. Other rehabs, it’s just meeting after meeting after meeting about drinking and using drugs. It’s a very closed environment and a much bigger population. It’s not coed. It’s like being in an institution. It’s bunk beds, you don’t have your own room. It’s like human trafficking.”
“Ibogaine allowed me to look at my life in a different perspective and look at things that have happened to me, that have caused me pain and grief. It allowed me to let them go and deal with them in a healthy way. And it reset my serotonin and dopamine, which have not been normal since I was 11 years old.”
“I’ve never been sober since I was 11. My mind has always been so polluted. I’ve always been in a foggy state. I couldn’t tolerate the discomfort of my own self. I didn’t know why then. I couldn’t pinpoint it then. But now with three nights of ayahuasca and one night of ibogaine, I know the cause of it.”
“Going into my ibogaine treatment, I was really nervous because I knew I was going to see the truth and see something that would cause me pain. It wasn’t horrible but it was difficult. Mentally it was rough to go through my past again. And look at all the things that I had tried to forget. Waking up that next morning after ibogaine, I felt and looked like a different human being. I looked in the mirror and did not recognize myself. I did not see myself as a drug addict anymore. Something in my brain was different.”
“I asked myself, if I had heroin in my hand right now, would it sound like a good thing to do? And I thought no, I don’t need it anymore. I felt happy with myself. I thought I don’t need a chemical to do it anymore. I felt happy. I felt okay with myself. I accepted who I was. It was just like something I can’t explain. but it brought joy to me. My heart felt warm. For so long I have not been able to feel comfortable or loving towards myself. I felt like I loved myself again.
I felt like I loved who I was.”
“The first night of ayahuasca was like the Toad (5MEO DMT), it was really euphoric. Really uplifting. I felt weightless, like there wasn’t a care in the world that could bring me down. Nothing could bring me down. I felt like I saw god. The second night was when I asked the ayahuasca to allow me to see why I chose to do heroin and meth and drugs to numb my pain instead of dealing with it the right way like normal people do. It showed me that what I had thought had originally caused me to hurt myself was wrong — I had a distorted view of what had happened. I had forgotten how bad my uncle treated me and my cousin and how much he hurt us. I never really realized how much he hurt me. I always thought it was my dad’s fault. I feel like I can forgive my dad and myself and I can tell him to his face, It’s not your fault. I feel like I can accept what I’ve done and move on now. I feel like I’m free from the chains.”
“The third night I purged I felt like I got me ego ripped out of me. I was able to get all those bad emotions and the bad feelings about other people out, and I was able to be one with everything else around me. We’re all on a level playing field. We all get the same chances. I felt loved.”
“Going back I feel I’d be lying if I said I’m 100 percent not nervous or scared. But I’m not scared of what I have to do. I’ve just never had to face life on life’s terms out there in the real world. But now that I have these tools, I feel like I have the power to do it. The tool of forgiveness, and the stuff I’ve been able to let go of. I can’t change the past.”
“I don’t feel like getting high anymore. It sounds disgusting now. I hate it. I can actually say that now and mean it. I always before would say it but knew I would get high again. Now I feel like I don’t have to say yes, I feel like I can make a choice. And I’m not choosing it. Now that all this plant medicine has restored my brain and my chemicals, I am so much happier without it.
It doesn’t appeal to me in the same way it used to.”
The Anzelmo Wellness Center is an integrated clinic dedicated, utilizing holistic treatment methods, to healing severe addiction, deep trauma, and other challenges that life hands us. Our treatment philosophy combines the best of Western treatment modalities with ancient healing techniques and traditional indigenous wisdom.
